I never wanted this to happen
This never-ending chapter where you only exist in my mind
A colossal divide that keeps us frozen in time
Anchored by our hearts amidst this desolate terrain.

You are still as real to me as ever
Piecing together sound bites of you inside
The fragments of our past are the sum of where I am
A vacation of emptiness from which I cannot return.

I bled in this vacuum today, and I’ll remain unstitched tomorrow
Far from a badge of honor, it is simply the manifestation of my loss
Heavy hearted quicksand in the shadows of the night
So unwhole with tears streaming from my soul.

There will, one day, come a time when the ache is relieved
When I take my last breath or when I see you again
And though I am oceans away from any moments rest
There is no taking for granted that I once was inside your walls.